Wednesday, September 28, 2011
Take THAT, Floppy Tooth
Even a tooth that wants to hang on by a thread for weeks can't survive music class, baby! My little girl lost her first tooth on the eve of her 6th birthday...awesome!
Wednesday, September 21, 2011
Dad Entry #110
Michael doesn't like to be wrong. He likes admitting it even less. I've never encountered this trait before. I've never seen a bear crap in the woods either. Okay, I've seen the former, but only a million times. Sarcasm aside, I should add this about Michael: he isn't wrong very often.
My kids have a shitload of books. Sorry, but that statement needed emphasis. Profanity works pretty well for that. If you've ever been to a movie, or a ballgame, or a bar, or a meeting at work, you know it's true. I don't recommend it, but nobody's perfect. So everywhere I turn now I see books, kids books, on the shelves - duh! - but also on the tables, chairs, beds, counters, ottomans, in the bathroom, in the kitchen, in the hallway, in my car. I love it.
When I think about the things I know my kids will go through, as they grow, it's a tiny bit heartbreaking. Michael and Megan are lucky - and I am too - compared to many. But I'm not talking about poverty and destruction, severe emotional and physical pain. At least I hope I'm not! I'm talking about other 'things', as I've precisely labeled them. Difficult things. Moments of nervousness, embarrassment, sadness, betrayal, guilt. These are painful experiences too. I don't want my teenagers to cry. But they will. Prized friendships will explode - if only temporarily. They'll be rejected by the only person they'll ever love (until, a week later, they discover the next 'only person they'll ever love'). They'll make mistakes that hurt others, too. There will be accidents and missed opportunities. They'll take speech class. And then the 'only person they'll ever love' will be sitting in the front row - not even listening but this won't register - when a notecard is fumbled or missing, when cottonmouth and clamminess attack! I don't see how it's possible, but at some point my kids will experience failure, be disrespected, mocked, wrongly accused, overlooked, ignored, under-appreciated (or over-appreciated, this can have ill effects too). These things leave marks. I think of the prayer in Gethsemane, "Father, take this cup." But we are pushed into growth and change this way, like everyone else, a part of the awesomeness - thank you, Po - of being human; we are so similar. It's all good. I guess. I read a simple quote the other day: "Kids are inherently strong, not weak." True. I also read something like, "We should remember that childhood and young-adulthood are not preparation for life, but a significant portion of life itself." Also true. I wonder if my kids will even use notecards for speeches? They probably get teleprompters now.
My kids have a shitload of books. Sorry, but that statement needed emphasis. Profanity works pretty well for that. If you've ever been to a movie, or a ballgame, or a bar, or a meeting at work, you know it's true. I don't recommend it, but nobody's perfect. So everywhere I turn now I see books, kids books, on the shelves - duh! - but also on the tables, chairs, beds, counters, ottomans, in the bathroom, in the kitchen, in the hallway, in my car. I love it.
When I think about the things I know my kids will go through, as they grow, it's a tiny bit heartbreaking. Michael and Megan are lucky - and I am too - compared to many. But I'm not talking about poverty and destruction, severe emotional and physical pain. At least I hope I'm not! I'm talking about other 'things', as I've precisely labeled them. Difficult things. Moments of nervousness, embarrassment, sadness, betrayal, guilt. These are painful experiences too. I don't want my teenagers to cry. But they will. Prized friendships will explode - if only temporarily. They'll be rejected by the only person they'll ever love (until, a week later, they discover the next 'only person they'll ever love'). They'll make mistakes that hurt others, too. There will be accidents and missed opportunities. They'll take speech class. And then the 'only person they'll ever love' will be sitting in the front row - not even listening but this won't register - when a notecard is fumbled or missing, when cottonmouth and clamminess attack! I don't see how it's possible, but at some point my kids will experience failure, be disrespected, mocked, wrongly accused, overlooked, ignored, under-appreciated (or over-appreciated, this can have ill effects too). These things leave marks. I think of the prayer in Gethsemane, "Father, take this cup." But we are pushed into growth and change this way, like everyone else, a part of the awesomeness - thank you, Po - of being human; we are so similar. It's all good. I guess. I read a simple quote the other day: "Kids are inherently strong, not weak." True. I also read something like, "We should remember that childhood and young-adulthood are not preparation for life, but a significant portion of life itself." Also true. I wonder if my kids will even use notecards for speeches? They probably get teleprompters now.
Saturday, September 17, 2011
Dad Entry #109
Megan saw a Sikh at the grocery store yesterday. He was wearing the customary turban (also the bracelet, another trademark). Megan giggled and said, "He looks like he tells fortunes." Hmm. Not exactly PC. I couldn't help but laugh. I've worked with Sikhs at Motorola, and know they would've chuckled at her comment, also. I respect them and their spiritual devotion and discipline, and I share with them many beliefs (e.g. belief in One Almighty God, belief in the equality of all humankind, recognition of certain obstacles to spiritual growth and wellbeing). I suppose I should've explained to Megan the turban has religious significance. But I didn't. Speaking of fortune-teller costumes, Halloween is next month!
Megan is writing phonetically now and it's AWESOME! Example: DIR MOMMY WIL U GIV ME THE UMIRGN DOL BED. Translation, although none is needed: Dear Mommy, will you give me the American Doll bed. (This was a birthday present idea.)
Holy shit, Michael has hair on his legs! Like darkish, noticeable leg hair. It's really got Sara freaked out. Me too, I guess.
Megan has not outgrown messy eating. After every meal, My Gorgeousness still has food smudges on her nose and crumbs in her eyelashes. And the corners of her mouth, her cheeks, her clothes, the chair she's sitting in, the floor around her... they all bear evidence of eating, like massive amounts of eating. I think, Geez Megan, did you get any food in your mouth?!
Sometimes I feel like Megan calls for me a lot when I'm with her. I mean A LOT. "Daddy, watch me!" and "Daddy, look at this!" and "Daddy, I need you!" She'll say, "Daddy, come see this part!" when I've turned on Cartoon Network precisely so I can peel away to do some chore. Megan's good about playing alone - as is Michael - at certain times; she plays with her dolls and I can hear her narrating dramatic scenes and conversations in her play area. But I feel a bit frustrated when she seems to pepper me with constant instructions, even if they're cheerful and bracketed by 'please' and 'thank you'. I do, however, know it won't be like this forever; some day her requests - dare I say 'commands'! - will be fewer. She won't need help reaching and moving and fixing simple things, bathing, drying, brushing hair, reading, writing, preparing food, working the TV, and so on. Someone else will zip up the backs or her dresses. When that day comes... I will be sad.
There are numerous things you revisit as a parent, fascinating things, simply because your children learn about them, and it's been 25 years or whatever since you learned about them, in detail, things we've mentioned here before like ancient Egypt, giant squids, outer space, electricity, pirates and vikings, tadpoles, lightning bugs, marsupials, magicians, bows and arrows and canons... the list is long. The latest thing that fascinates me - other than the entire human body, an appreciation I got from Megan! - is the spider web. Yeah, crazy, I know, the spider web. Megan and I were in the condo hallway yesterday and a spider was dangling right in front of us. The only explanation was that it had spun a strand of web from the ceiling, straight down about 5 feet long. It was not a big spider, and I was thinking Where the hell does all this web material come from? How does it create a rope, from material it houses internal to itself, strong enough to hold its own weight, that is hundreds of times the length of its own body? Clearly it's not a very voluminous material; it's super-thin and really, really strong. I voiced my nagging incredulity to Megan. She agreed. "How is this possible?" I asked her. She didn't answer. Nature is simply amazing sometimes. For the record - I just Googled it - spider 'silk' as it's called, has the tensile strength of high-grade steel (I've heard this before) and is about half as strong as Kevlar. Not bad. Kevlar can stop a bullet. That's how hard it is to pull it apart; same as steel. Did you know spiders produce different types of silk for different uses? And who teaches them web design? I know it's a popular field these days, but still. That was a stupid play on words, but lets hear it for spiders, Megan and I think they're pretty fascinating.
Megan is writing phonetically now and it's AWESOME! Example: DIR MOMMY WIL U GIV ME THE UMIRGN DOL BED. Translation, although none is needed: Dear Mommy, will you give me the American Doll bed. (This was a birthday present idea.)
Holy shit, Michael has hair on his legs! Like darkish, noticeable leg hair. It's really got Sara freaked out. Me too, I guess.
Megan has not outgrown messy eating. After every meal, My Gorgeousness still has food smudges on her nose and crumbs in her eyelashes. And the corners of her mouth, her cheeks, her clothes, the chair she's sitting in, the floor around her... they all bear evidence of eating, like massive amounts of eating. I think, Geez Megan, did you get any food in your mouth?!
Sometimes I feel like Megan calls for me a lot when I'm with her. I mean A LOT. "Daddy, watch me!" and "Daddy, look at this!" and "Daddy, I need you!" She'll say, "Daddy, come see this part!" when I've turned on Cartoon Network precisely so I can peel away to do some chore. Megan's good about playing alone - as is Michael - at certain times; she plays with her dolls and I can hear her narrating dramatic scenes and conversations in her play area. But I feel a bit frustrated when she seems to pepper me with constant instructions, even if they're cheerful and bracketed by 'please' and 'thank you'. I do, however, know it won't be like this forever; some day her requests - dare I say 'commands'! - will be fewer. She won't need help reaching and moving and fixing simple things, bathing, drying, brushing hair, reading, writing, preparing food, working the TV, and so on. Someone else will zip up the backs or her dresses. When that day comes... I will be sad.
There are numerous things you revisit as a parent, fascinating things, simply because your children learn about them, and it's been 25 years or whatever since you learned about them, in detail, things we've mentioned here before like ancient Egypt, giant squids, outer space, electricity, pirates and vikings, tadpoles, lightning bugs, marsupials, magicians, bows and arrows and canons... the list is long. The latest thing that fascinates me - other than the entire human body, an appreciation I got from Megan! - is the spider web. Yeah, crazy, I know, the spider web. Megan and I were in the condo hallway yesterday and a spider was dangling right in front of us. The only explanation was that it had spun a strand of web from the ceiling, straight down about 5 feet long. It was not a big spider, and I was thinking Where the hell does all this web material come from? How does it create a rope, from material it houses internal to itself, strong enough to hold its own weight, that is hundreds of times the length of its own body? Clearly it's not a very voluminous material; it's super-thin and really, really strong. I voiced my nagging incredulity to Megan. She agreed. "How is this possible?" I asked her. She didn't answer. Nature is simply amazing sometimes. For the record - I just Googled it - spider 'silk' as it's called, has the tensile strength of high-grade steel (I've heard this before) and is about half as strong as Kevlar. Not bad. Kevlar can stop a bullet. That's how hard it is to pull it apart; same as steel. Did you know spiders produce different types of silk for different uses? And who teaches them web design? I know it's a popular field these days, but still. That was a stupid play on words, but lets hear it for spiders, Megan and I think they're pretty fascinating.
Wednesday, September 14, 2011
Dad Entry #108
I’m in China again, just arrived, I'm in the backseat of a car leaving the airport as I type this. It’s 4:04 AM my time, 5:04 PM local. PM, just to be clear; night is day and day is night now. I’m bleary-eyed but ready for that tug-of-war with jet lag (commanding myself to 'stay awake' late in the day and then the seemingly contradictory order to 'go back to sleep' when I awake hyper-alert at 3 AM). No big deal. My driver is always able to hail me among the throng of arriving passengers departing customs, which is bordered by another mob hugging the cordoned-off exit-way. It’s pretty chaotic; I would never spot him, but he does me – every time – maybe because, like Michael and Megan, I’m tall for my age :) In China, at least, I'm a head taller than most, except for the big German dudes and UK'ers I run into, or the shady Russian 'businessmen', or the Danish oil-drillers. Nice guys, all, to be honest. It’s Monday. I spent the last five nights and every weekend minute with the kids, and in some ways our patience for each other was thinning; once or twice I felt a hint of eagerness to hand them over 100% to Sara – for two weeks – and maybe I even felt a stab of guilt, or pity for her, knowing she’s gotta do it all by herself for that extended period. Am I actually recording these thoughts? I think I'm being too honest. It’s my 6th or 7th trip to China in recent years. So I know it goes by fast, I'll be able to snuggle Megan again soon. And I should clarify about the kids over the weekend; they were mostly great and we had a blast, and, well, there are always things I could've planned and communicated better, there is always some disharmony, drama, bickering, fighting because of my decisions. Apparently I forget how much the other will protest if I let Megan pick the restaurant or Michael pick the show we'll watch. Michael's friend joined us for a while but we didn't include one of Megan's. Problem! Making trades for 'a player to be named later' never works with kids; making promises for 'next time' fall flat. Little attitudes flare, and need dousing, like the kitchen fire I, uh, experienced in the condo a few weeks ago. Anyway, next thing I know I’m getting off a plane on the other side of the world, and I see little Chinese kids - just like mine, with bright eyes and perfect skin and silly t-shirts – and that eagerness and pity I admitted earlier is turned on its head, flip-flopped, I’m eager to see my kids again asap and I pity myself now, not Sara. Of course, I should pity no one. Except for maybe everyone in our country for the recent unprecedented, unsustainable greedy nonsense perpetrated by big banks, Wall Street, politicians, the American media, realtors-and-mortgage-brokers-and-everyone-else-who-encouraged-people-with-no-money-to-'buy'-huge-homes, etc. etc. I really think we’re in uncharted territory as a country; the American dream is suddenly all about profit, possession, re-election, entertainment, instant gratification. As Americans, our freedoms are awesome and unmatched; impressively conceived and earned and protected. And that's only one of many reasons I'm grateful to be an American. But... we could use a little attitude adjustment - as a nation, in my humble opinion - when it comes to certain expectations, appetites, entitlements, excesses, distortions. Can you tell I’m sleep-deprived and crabby? I hope we can make some tough decisions and sacrifices as a country and fix things. My children are only 5 and 8 years old as I write this – their whole lives ahead of them – and I’m concerned. Sorry I digressed…. Back to the commentary about missing the kids, my mom always calls after we leave Minneapolis or they leave Chicago, and the traveling party is home safely, and my mom will say over the phone, “I miss you guys!” I know; it’s go, go, go when we’re together, and there’s a nice sigh or deep breath when we separate, but then… we miss each other!
Now on to more serious matters: in a discussion over the phone I realized Michael now places everyone into one of two buckets. It’s a very critical and revealing thing. Bucket one or bucket two? And sometimes the bucketizing process is difficult, not always clean, precise, easy to understand. Michael can be frustrated by things - statements, situations, and in this case, allegiances - that are imprecise or unclear, not to mention wavering or dispassionate. Case in point: Cassie and Georgie, Megan's twin kindergarten classmates. Michael said they're Sox fans. Gasp! How can this be?! They're so young and innocent, and precocious... and yet they're in bucket number two! But Michael's certain their dad, Chris, is a Cubs fan. Is this a family divided? Confused? Were Cassie and Georgie bamboozled by cruel or ignorant schoolmates? Who knows. And Megan, she changes buckets regularly, just to annoy Michael I’m sure. When I’m around, she's a proud Cubs fan. She doesn't eat otherwise. But Michael insists she has traitorous moments. Maybe she spouts off about how awesome Konerko is. If so, she has a point (Michael and I both respect Konerko). But there were so many Sox fans at a party Michael went to recently that he remarked, “It was a disaster.” That’s my boy!
Now on to more serious matters: in a discussion over the phone I realized Michael now places everyone into one of two buckets. It’s a very critical and revealing thing. Bucket one or bucket two? And sometimes the bucketizing process is difficult, not always clean, precise, easy to understand. Michael can be frustrated by things - statements, situations, and in this case, allegiances - that are imprecise or unclear, not to mention wavering or dispassionate. Case in point: Cassie and Georgie, Megan's twin kindergarten classmates. Michael said they're Sox fans. Gasp! How can this be?! They're so young and innocent, and precocious... and yet they're in bucket number two! But Michael's certain their dad, Chris, is a Cubs fan. Is this a family divided? Confused? Were Cassie and Georgie bamboozled by cruel or ignorant schoolmates? Who knows. And Megan, she changes buckets regularly, just to annoy Michael I’m sure. When I’m around, she's a proud Cubs fan. She doesn't eat otherwise. But Michael insists she has traitorous moments. Maybe she spouts off about how awesome Konerko is. If so, she has a point (Michael and I both respect Konerko). But there were so many Sox fans at a party Michael went to recently that he remarked, “It was a disaster.” That’s my boy!
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